User Profile

Hi there. My name I Matt. I would ask what your name is, but to be honest, I probably don't care if I don't know it already. Not to say I dont like meeting new people, but rather I prefer to meet new people in person; you follow?
Anyhow this is my 'info' my, erm, that is to say, this is the part of my lj where I try to give you some insight as to the person behind the woefully-whiny name Innerdespair.

Lets start with the basics shall we?

What I look like:
Well this is a pretty easy part. I am 6'4, thin, but not gaunt, and fit. I have dark black hair, and prominent cheekbones. My eyes are brown and have dark rings carved under them. I keep my hair...well actually I don't really keep it. It's just barely there now. Buzzed away I must sadly say; and so all that is left is the soft underbelly of my once-flourishing mane. Herm, I realize now that that description is cryptic at best. I CUT IT ALL OFF. BUZZ-BUZZ. Military style Ok? Goddamn stop interrogating me. I mean we haven't even gotten that far and I am already sick of you. Wait where the hell are you going? I was just fucking around calm down. You really need to grow a sense of humor. Or actually maybe you don't. Well if you are gonna stick with me you will need to, thats for sure. Anyways. Back to what I was saying. In my older info I had stated in a very lengthly and drawn out manner that I love clothes. That remains true. But I am going to forgo the long description and just say I like expensive clothes. Suits, jackets, jeans, all of it. Meet me and you will see. I think that is it...Oh yeah I keep a 5-o-clock shadow/beard thingy.

My more defining outlooks on life:
I am a pretty optomistic guy. Generally nothing can faze me for more than a little while. I mean, I will post a rant on this journal, and then be done with it. Thats what matters, that I got to shout it out in cyberspace, rather than beat the hell out of the problem/person. Anyhow, I really love my life. I really do. I love my friends (totally non-gay way for any guy friends reading this) and I have an awesome family, and a great job. Who could really ask for much more? Well lots of people could I suppose. And thats cool, if they want that. I just like being happy. It feels pretty good. As far as relgion goes I am happily agnostic. If you are wondering what that means I will go ahead and throw you a bone: I believe in a God but do not subscribe to any religion nor do I worship regularly. Think of us more as old friends that have tea once in awhile and catch up. "Hi God, how you doin?" "Oh I'm good Matt you?" "Just fine" (that sort of thing). There are some things that totally get under my skin though, here is the part where I list them.
Goth kids~ Grow the fuck up. That shit went out with hair metal and death rock. Nobody thinks you are special for it anymore and no one is afraid of you anymore. We got terrorists with gas that can make your skin MELT THE FUCK OFF; In comparison you really aren't shit. So drop the black leather, wash off the face paint, get a job, and hide the Ann Rice books until you have matured enough to know that shit ain't how the world works.
Religous intolerance~ Religion is the most POWERFUL TOOL man has. It can be used for incredible good or incredible evil. And man has it seen both sides of the spectrum on this little globe. Seriously though, we need religion, we really do. Why? Because as Hobbes so brilliantly pointed out: Religion is the basis for Government. Religion lays the foundations of Right and Wrong that allow a child to understand the basics of law and civil rights. If you are one of those people who is like "yeah? Well fuck government! AnArCHY to the MAX!" Then I hope you are fully aware that your dumb-asses would be the first to get killed in that sort of place. Back to religion-Sadly it also creates barriers between people (this side affect is mostly due to people misenterpreting their religion, as it is way easier to hate people and think you are better than them than it is to accept people equally).
Applesauce~ I got in a fight with applesauce once. I really dont like him.

Things I freakishly adore/love/might try to steal from you:
I love my Cat, Cricket. He is the baddest cat on planet earth. Wait screw that. Cricket is the baddest cat in this universe, any parallel universe, fractured dimension, or other plane of existance. He really is just that tight. I also love art. Art is one of the best things man can do (Of course by man I mean man-kind, so that includes all you females out there~rock on) because it helps better society. I myself love comics. Yeah thats right I said it. What you wanna fight about it? What? Huh? Oh sorry I got worked up. I didnt mean that. Here have a chocolate covered grahm cracker. That shit is good huh? Yeah I like them too. What was I talking about? Oh yeah art. Anyhow I really like old-school comics like batman and superman, because they are all about right and wrong, good and evil. Good stuff for a kid nowadays when television is a veritable fondue pot of bullshit. All little kids should read comics like that. But not anti-hero crap comics. Where they kill and generally try to be badass by fighting the man. (thats so you wolverine. You too Punisher. ~Yeah go cry in the corner bitches). I also love cartoons. Ducktales, Batman, and Justice league are my big 3, but I pretty much love all the oldies. Did I mention I am an artist? Well I am. Now you know. Goddamn my fingers are getting tired. I need something to drink. No not alcoholic, jesus how am I gonna finish this if I am sloshed? Hold up a second I will be right back. What? I said I will be right back! No I don't know what you are supposed to do! ITS THE FUCKING INTERNET. FIND SOMTHING TO DO YOU LAZY BASTARD(s).
Ok I am back. I got some orange juice. Its really good.
I like orange juice too by the way.
(No you cant have any)

What I do with my time:
I work a ridiculous amount at my job. I am getting some gray hairs, as someone has so gracefully pointed out to me. So thats cool. Wait. Not really. Oh yeah did I mention I am twenty years old? I really should have done that earlier. I totally forgot. Anyways I am twenty years old, I work alot at my job, I like to work out too, and...oh fuck it:
Movies, video games, working out, doing art, listening to music, partying, and working. Thats what I do with my time.

People that interest me:
If you are a guy and this is the most important part of the info to you, then let me just break it down now: I'm not gay. Sorry. I just thought I would throw it out there. So as I was saying...actually I never got started because I got pulled off onto that other tangent about the whole me being straight thing. So let me begin. I like people who are open minded to others ideas, and who like to have a damn good time, which can be anything from watching a funny movie and laughing till your eyes bleed water (thats crying to all you pansies out there), to drinking until you have thoroughly convinced yourself that you indeed are the reincarnation of a babylonian god, and only more shots will appease your appetite for destruction. I really just love to laugh and have fun, so if you think thats you, lets fucking do this! Lets just show up at some event and MESS THAT SHIT UP! You know what I am saying? HUH? YEAH OH GOD IM PSYCHED! FUCK YEAH! Oh shit I just punched my wall. See? See? Thats YOUR fault! I am so making you fix that. Dont think I can? Well I KNOW people. Feel me? Yeah I am Italian. I forgot to say that too. I am forgetful.

Did I mention that I am totally off my nut?
Nah I am just joshin ya. I am really quite sane.
Really.
No I am serious. Stop laughing please.

Oh I thought I would add a part about the type of women that I like, but my old info had the perfect description, so I am just gonna use that:

I am a moron for women who are both beautiful and intelligent. That’s a must in fact. But also, I am most attracted to them when they like art. I love to argue with the women I care for. I love to bait them and have them try and beat me in an argument (it’s so rare, but when it happens it's fucking sexy).

Oh and on a serious note-

I bear a distinct grudge against any and all people who I believe have betrayed my trust deeply, or abused it. The one thing I hold highest in life is trust; Human beings are innately selfish and evil, we must train ourselves to learn things like compassion, or selflessness. And to entrust another with these parts of yourself, these parts of yourself that you have earned, is to give them an incredible gift. And should someone squander that gift, they are of deserving of nothing less than fitting righteous revenge. I think Aristotle has a good quote:
"We should behave unto our friends, as we would have our friends behave unto us"

I am so over writing this now. I will do some more tomorrow. If I feel like it.

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